and the words keep flowing

I seem to have a new chanel for creativity these past few months. There have been some very difficult dark times and words keep flowing through me. Helping me to make sense of it. Helping to make it tangible. I am not a poet and I'm quite sure my grammar leaves a lot to be desired but I have had fun playing with the words. They bring me comfort.

What I find strange is that when the words com they are darker, more macarbe than any other my creative expressions. When I make things, I make nice things, pretty things..things to make me smile. Things to make you smile. But the words, they follow a different path. They want to unleash, to open up and start a dialogue. They are more daring, more risky.

It makes me feel vulnerable to share them but I quite like the feel of it. They are nothing but musings. Playful ramblings of a dotty bird. To tired to fly. Contemplating deeply the world around and building a safe nest for winter.

Here goes...

This morning..7am.. after a restless night (inspired by the howling wind)

She's angry, agitated
Short sharp breaths
No release
I cannot see her but I feel her all around
She's trying to speak
but gagged
or is it just that no one listened?
Her gentle whispers now a torrent of abuse
She's angry
She cracks her bones
Fidgets, restless
Sways and shakes
twists and spirals
Changing everything
Moving
Making room for something new
at first a groan then wailing, roaring
pleading, yearning
but then she ceases
or did she just move on
in her absence, a new silence
a deafening silence
and stillness

Thanks for reading :)

52 Lists - Week 2 and 3 (falling behind already..eeek!)

waaah! It's been another busy week in the Dotty household of slightly groggy kids recovery from colds, being stuck at home for a day when the roads all iced over, birthdays (Mr Dotty!), lorries getting stuck in the farm lane leading to rather long detours and having lovely friends visiting! phew...and just the normal old humdrum of life with little kids and a huge desire to be making and sewing and sewing and making!

This was the birthday card I made for the Dotty man! He had asked me for a card with these words on it so that he could give it to student teachers and folk a his school. I chuckled to myself as I write in it... yeah...well done for being born!  I'm going to tweak the design a bit before I get them printed but I really like the idea of cards with either no writing or very vague statements that can be used for a lot of different occasions. 

but anyways...the lists...the lists!! I really haven't changed since I was at school, I'm still always just a bit late with everything! Last weeks list prompt from Moorea Seal was to "List Your Greatest Comforts".  I've really been enjoying writing these lists, I'm not a list making type of person but there is something quite therapeutic about sitting down and being a little introspective for a time. 

My list was:
Sitting in the warm glow of a fire
Fluffy Slippers and new socks
Birdsong
Daydreaming
Losing myself in a good book
Getting into a freshly made bed
To lay in the shade of a tree on a hot summers day (we do get the odd one ib Cornwall!)
Beach-combing
Stargazing
Breakfast in bed and an undisturbed lie-in (a RARE treat indeed!)
The smell of Sweet peas, Rose Geranium and Jasmine.
and...a long hot bath!

This weeks prompt is to  "List the things you should be proud of" 

The aim being to "List your efforts, your best qualities, your dreams and hopes, how you learned from a hard situation, and anything else that helps you recognize that you have reason to be proud of yourself."

I am going to write it now..as I sit here blogging.....sometimes it's fun to see what pops into your head!

Giving birth to my children at home (I was very fortunate and lucky)
Raising my two bright, beautiful and spirited children (and just about keeping sane)
Having the confidence to promote and sell my work
Getting my Degree in Applied Psychology 
Keeping a very calm and cool head in some times of major crisis (then falling apart a bit later on!)
Helping my friends and family through some very demanding and traumatic times
Learning new skills and finding new inspiration and creativity each day
My ability to use humor and make others laugh, even in pretty dire situations
My ability to see the best in people and my desire to help others
My home cooking and preserve making...I'm getting the hang of it now!

well I think that's it...are you still there?? It was a long wordy post I know! I feel very self indulgent just rambling on about myself but I guess that's what I mostly do in this here blog space! I do recommend you have a little go with the list making! 

Well, I've got to run..

thanks for visiting me! 

Love Lisa...the Dotty one

and THANK YOU for the flowers dear friend!! A lovely burst of colour on such a gloomy old day! 

Inspired..52 lists...Week 1

Hello there,
I am not usually a list making type of girl...but I thought I'd try something a little different. I'm going to join in with Moorea Seal who is running a little project called 52 lists..there will be a different theme prompt every week. I just feel like I need a little something new to inspire me, I'm feeling a bit bogged down in my messy chaotic mind...so many things I'd like to do...where oh where to start!?? (at the beginning of course I hear you say!!) 

So the inspiration for today's list was simply 'list the words that touch your soul'. I wrote my list whilst snuggled in bed next to my poor sick little girl, who is now sleeping again. It is so eerily quiet in the house, I miss her constant chattering...even though it drives me crazy too!

So here goes...

 My words...most of which popped into my brain instantly were:

nurture
create
dream
freedom
dance
flowing
kindred
family
mother
earth
liberation
fly
love
innocence
beauty
discover
heal
courage
serene
fleeting
remember
patience
peace
grow
feel
release

Its quite an interesting exercise and quite telling about my state of mind and where I am in my life. I'm going to find myself a nice book or maybe decorate an old one to keep m lists in. I realise this is a bit of a different sort of post to the norm..but I hope you can find inspiration in it too.

it's back to raining again today but I took this lovely shot early yesterday morning..so peaceful. Those two little Jackdaws are always together, they all sit in pairs in the tree. I think these are the pair that nest in my chimney.

Take care

Love Dotty 

xxx

and another thing....Jenny Blair (the artist formally known as Love & Peas ..ha!) has forwarded me the link to her fab tutorial on how to make your own note book...please take a peek, they are most lovely indeed! The tutorial is here. I will definately have a go..hopefully it will be finished before the end of the year to store all my inspiring lists!. x